Happy Band

So, due to my sickness last week the doctor had me do an upper GI test today to check on my band. It was really neat to see my band and how it works under florascope. My band is positioned perfectly and working just as it should be. I got .01 of a fill while there too. I hope it jump starts me back to losing weight. I haven't lost anything in a week and it is kind of depressing.

I did discover today that I can no longer eat pasta. It makes me sad. I love pasta. I prefer it over any cake or candy or anything really.

My hubby and I had a fight last night. It was about the air conditioner. It was stupid but I really feel terrible about it. I think it illuminated a bigger issues for us on both sides. I really feel like his opposite schedule is taking a toll on me, and on our relationship. It is so hard. I also have so much going on in my head, I really feel like my husband just does not get it, and part of me thinks that he just doesnt care. I have issues going on with my mom, and worrying about her, work is taking a toll, I am tired all the time, I have stress, and infertility really takes a toll on me too. So much. Sometimes I just feel like I need a husband who is more understanding, more compassionate. One who will say I don't understand, but I am here for you. Someone to wipe away my tears. It is a bad week, I may feel differently next week, but right now, I feel alone.

I feel physically tired all the time. No doctor knows why, but I am so sick of being sick and tired. It is hard for me to imagine how a baby will play into all of this. If I am too tired now, how will I be able to take care of a baby, when I feel like I can barely take care of myelf some days.