I feel like I am back in high school....

Ya know, fat and lots of zits. My zits are out of control. I have gained maybe 10 pounds, but I worked so hard to lose the 52 before I got pregnant. Sometimes I think I made the wrong surgery choice and I should have opted for the full gastric bypass and lost a lot more weight quicker...

Anyway...I cleaned our basement out and it is super clean...we had our oil tank removed, since we went to propane this year with our new furnace....yay for having a new furnace for the winter. We have so much room in our basement, which is good because our new freezer comes in less than 2 weeks!

My Moxie went to doggie daycare yesterday and has literally slept for the last 11 hours, no desire to get up, not even to pee. I love a lazy loungy dog.

Old Navy is having an extra 50% off clearance sale. I hit 2 stores yesterday, and debating on a 3rd today! I love a bargain...I got about 10 shirts for me, and paid less than $2.99 for each of them. I got a few things for the boys. I really love bargains. They are not maternity shirts, but I got xxl and they are pretty big and long, and will work nicely...and not break the bank. I can still fit in a fewof my old navy sweats, but for leaving the house, there is no way around maternity pants. Oh, and I need to address my bra situation, and a situation it is becoming. I wonder if my boobs will EVER stop growing, because it is getting old.

I have been doing focus groups....tonight is my 3rd one, in 3 weeks. They are fun, you meet great people and well, you get paid cash. Tonights is $125! I hope I can get picked for more.

I worry about money a lot. I know, a few lines above I spoke of my new clothes, but I just worry, mostly about the future, our retirement, what I will do for work when I am ready to go back, will we make ends meat, because folks, 2 babies are expensive.

So, I think I am going to throw my own baby shower. I wish it wasn't the case, but my mom wanted to but is out of work from an inury and doesn't have the money to, and well, no one else has really stepped up. I don't have a lot of friends. I don't know if I have ever confessed that on here before...but I have very few friends. I think I am a nice girl, and I don't know why, but bottom line is, hardly any. It makes me sad, more sad than I ever want to admit. I wish it was different, but it is what it is. So, I think I will throw my own shower, I have one "friend" who is going to help a bit, but...meh...it's far from how I saw my baby shower going.

I went to the doctors yesterday...I addressed some of my concerns with her. My endo found protein in my urine, so now I have to do a 24 hour one, I also am having my first glucose test this week. I go on the 30th to the hospital/perinatologist for our level 2 anatomy ultrasound. 8 am, yuck. The hubs will get to come though, which is nice. Our office ultrasound lady said it is a neat one to be there for.

We met with and decided on a pediatrician. One more thing to cross off my list.

Weird to think that I am more than halfway done being pregnant. The doctor said yesterday she is thinking 34ish weeks, which is March 1st...but we will see...but I am just about 19 weeks now, and an way will they allow me to go past 38 weeks. I don't know whether to be happy its halfway over or sad.

Thats that!

I am loving reading blogs, and one that I read just got a BFP! Yay...it took a long time and I know she was often discouraged. I really hope everyone gets the BFP they deserve very soon!