randommmmm

So I went yesterday and had my band unfilled some. It seems that for the last 2 months I was too tight and that was what was making me throw up. We took out .4...and man did it make a huge difference....I think I may enjoy it for a week and then go in for a .1 fill...somewhere between where I am now and where I was .4 ago is where I want to be. I feel like I can eat a bit too much right now....but we will see. I want to be healthy, up my protein intake and see where it gets me.

The doctors office called on Friday and said my progesterone level was fine, they did not tell me what it was though, despite asking that morning to have the number left. I am going to call on Monday and tell them that disappointed me, that i want specifics when it comes to my care....not general it's fineness...

I went out last night with some people I am getting more and more friendly with, Jim and Jen and had a blast. It was nice to be social and meet new people and be able to enjoy my food, and the music that was playing on the patio....only thing that may have made it a TAD bit better was being able to enjoy a glass of wine or a martini...but no can do until we find out if we are pregnant.

I am having mixed feelings about if this could be the month...I am scared to death that it did not work this month and I dont want to do this stuff again. It made me feel so shitty...I am hoping with everything I have that we are pregnant this month. I POAS this morning and of course it was negative, but it was only like 7 days out and I know that is usually too early...but a small part of me was really hoping someone would realize how much I want this and show me a positive....come on Friday for a positive blood result!