Well,that was an easy decision

So at 11:00 am yesterday I was let go from my job. My boss came in and told me that I wasn't "fitting in" and when I asked for specific examples she just said it wasn't working out. Funny it took them 2.5 years to figure that out and they did not figure it out until I was pregnant. Sadly, CT is an at will state and I was a temporary employee, so really they don't need any real reason to fire me.

I spent all day yesterday crying my eyes out. I don't think I went more than 5 minutes without crying. I was a wreck. My husband has been amazing and said that I should just relax and be a stay at home wife/mom. I feel like I have a lot of months left to just sit home, but I also know that I probably wouldn't have been able to work much past January, they say you shouldn't plan to work past 28 weeks with twins, and that most women need bedrest.

I can collect unemployment, at least they told me i could and the letter they gave me simply states that they no longer need my services...I filed already but because I was let go I have a telephone hearing on the 28th, and will get no checks until then, so I hope I get it. Thanks to Obama you can collect for an awful long time.

I am happy about being able to stay home with my babies...I am going to commit to breastfeeding and enjoy raising them. I am worried about money. My husband makes a decent living and we will get by, but I fear how the transition will be going from each conrtibuting to his money all of a sudden being ours. I will get about $200 a week in unemployment, not a lot, but enough to contribute a tad.

Health insurance wise we will have to go on my husbands....his coverage costs more and is not nearly as good as mine, we will have a 750 deductable, and co-pays will be $20/$40 for a specialist. I am just glad I got so much from my health insurance, lapband and fertility wise....I couldn't imagine having to have paid $40 every doctors visit to the RE...if this plan would have even covered any fertility stuff...

So, thats been my life for the last few days....yesterday seemed like the end of the world, today seemed better. I am going to spend next week getting this house cleaned and in shape, since switching the bedrooms it is all a mess. We have vacation the 19-25th...

Oh, and I packed my husband up and sent him on a 2 day/2 night manfest, or LAN party to any geeks out there. He packs his computer and someone hosts a party and they all play computer games and eat and drink, they are going to the gun range tomorrow as well...man thinsg with the same bunch of friends....it happens a few times a year and I am glad he gets the time to go spend some man time. I made him 10 pounds of buffalo wings and sent him on his way.

I will miss him, I hate, hate, hate, okay, maybe I am actually scared to be home alone...I go nuts and lock all the doors and windows and keep checking them and sleep with the phone by the bed and put the flashlight and hammer on the nightstand. I hate it, alot.