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I never really seem to have to have something specific to blog about. I have a post brewing in my microsoft word that will be posted in about a week. Other than that, I live a pretty boring life and don't have too much to blog about but feel like I love when people update their blogs and I should update mine!

I found light block curtains at Bed, Bath and Beyond that match and work great. And they didn't break the bank. I was a happy girl. Yesterday morning I took off for a few hours and had some me time. I went to the mall, grabbed some Starbucks, walked around and just took my time. I went in and out of stores not looking for anything inparticular. I bought my first pair of maternity pants, I wont wear them yet but they are comfy! I then went to lunch at a little cafe by myself. It was nice, and a much needed break for me. Then I came home to the hubs....he sleeps much later than I do, because he is on an opposite schedule. He stays up until like 3-4 am and then can sleep until 11 or 12 sometimes.

Sleep for me lately is so hard. It just doesnt happen. I try. I am super tired, but it just doesnt happen. I want it to, but no such luck.

Yesterday afternoon we had some friends bring their puggle over to have a playdate with Moxie. We went to the dog park and we hiked and let them run and swim and play. Then we came home and hung out and they played some more. The dog is so small and my Moxie is so patient with her, it is very sweet. Moxie will be passed out for the next 2 days with all that playing. That pup was non-stop!

Today I think we are just going to lay low, there is laundry to do and odds and ends, maybe a trip to Costco..nothing big at all and I like it that way.

In baby news, everything seems to be okay, but I am still my paranoid self that something is going to go wrong. I hate feeling so worried all the time.

Random

I think I may be addicted to blogs. I come home and the first thing I want to do is read them. Especially the ones that I am waiting for big news on! I read probably about 20 blogs, but comment on very few. I dont want people to think I am some weird random girl. But I started reading one blog and just followed link after link and bookmarked the ones that I liked, or that had some similarities to my life. I now read about 20...and enjoy them all. Maybe I should comment more, then maybe more people would read my bloog, which would be great.

Random things - a few pictures as well!

* I froze food for the first time in my life and it did not go so well. A big slab of lasagna..I wrapped it in wax paper and then foil and then put in a baggie. I should have skipped the wax paper...it did not peel off very nice, in fact it didnt peel all off. We are thinking of buying a chest freezer, but I guess I should learn how to freeze stuff first.

* I am loving my new bedroom. It needs curtain, as the black trashbags taped up right now take a little something away from the room, but there are 2 windows in this room and our other bedroom had a very small one so the light is so bright. I hate bright light in the morning. After I get curtains I will post pictures.

* Moxie seems to be adjusting a bit more each day, but clearly has a preference for upstairs. She has slept half the nights with us though.

* I went to the doctors yesterday and saw 2 flickering little heartbeats. It caused a slew of emotions that I will talk about in another blog post.

* One really odd, very embarrassing fact about me is that I am almost 31 years old and still sleep with "woobie" shorts. I have had this pair of nylon shorts (never wore them) and I HAVE to have them in hand to go to sleep. I rub them, they make a comfroting swish sound. I said I would give them up when I got married. I havent.

* I got a pedicure today. I love them.

Hello out there!

Oh goodness, I am so excited to know that a few people are reading my blog and commenting. I have missed all the comments because I had no idea anyone read this! Thank you! It makes me beyond excited, scarily excited if you must know.

So what a shitty nights sleep I had last night. There is no other word to describe it. And it is all thanks to my dog. My poor 2.5 year old dog named Moxie, who from the moment we brought her home at 9 weeks always slept upstairs in our bedroom. She is in denial that we have moved rooms. She is angry about it, in fact.

All night last night I would hear walk in our new room, stare at me, throw her weight against the mattress with a sigh, walk out and I would hear her walk upstairs. She would stay there for about 30 mins and repeat the whole process. Even as I type this, she is upstairs and refuses to enter the new bedroom.

We brought her bed in here, showed it to her, pet her, talked to her and she couldnt get out fast enough. Poor thing, but really, its a room. Your bed is here, your mom and dad are here...lets get over it.

Hopefully tonight is a far better night, but I am not getting my hopes up from the mere fact that she refuse to come downstairs.

Super busy!

We have been super busy in the Stanton household this weekend.....

Our house is 3 floors, the top floor has 2 bedrooms, the main floor has 2 bedrooms, the bathroom and the iving room and kitchen and the basement is finished and actually where we spend most of our time. We have always had our bedroom on the top floor, but now the doc wants me to limit my stairs and the whole getting up 4 times a night thing is old already anyway....so we are moving our bedroom to the main floor, right near the bathroom! And the babies room will be across the hall.
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The bedroom we were going into was a light purple, it is my stepdaughter's room...I do not want a purple bedroom. I have a really nice bedding set in our bedroom I love, so I wanted to match the bedroom to it, I picked brown. a deep, dark brown. I was scared, I have never done such deep, bold color...but figured with the white trim and the light bedroom furniture we have it would be okay....I love it!

My brother in law came over yesterday and helped and the 3 of us got the 2 coats of paint on it nd it looks fantastic! Today we have to touch up some of the white trim where some brown got on it...we have friends coming over later to help the hubs move the bedroom furniture downstairs from up.

We also went to the Oyster Festival yesterday for the first time...it was fun, I would go again, it was free and it go us to walk a few miles and people watch and just take it all in...it was fun.

So I have this fear each and everyday that something bad will happen to our babies, That we will have the VTS or that I will micarry, I wish I could get over it..I have had some lower pressure and a bit of pain...I go for an ultrasound Tuesday I hope all is al right.

Yolks!

I had another ultrasound today, the babies are developing just the way they should so far....next Wed we should be able to hear the heartbeat...I pray to god that there are 2 healthy, strong ones.

I had a nice talk with Christina, the NP at the RE's office...she put my mind at some ease about the VTS, but it is not 100% guaranteed that it will not happen...just going to hope and pray that all turns out well

Will they make it?

My current fear right now is this vanishing twin syndrom...appearantly it happens very often, and especially since we found out so very early on....I am scared that it will happen, and then we will have to explain to everyone what happened....or I am afraid of a miscarriage. I sort of wish we had not told people so early, then we would not have to explain if something goes wrong....I am scared and am just praying for 2 healthy, little babies.....come on babies....we want you more than you would ever know...

Twice as nice....

We had an ultrasound yesterday at 5 weeks and found there are 2 sacs! There is always a chance that they may both not make it as babies, but for right now, we are having twins. I was glad that Tim was able to be there for me at this ultrasound, it almost did not work out that way, but in the end he was there, right where I wanted/needed him.

I am feeling many,, many things about twins...I feel blessed and scared and excited and oh goodness, so many things!!!

Could it be?

So yeah, we are pregnant. I am still in shock myself. I had taken that home pregnancy test on Tuesday and it had said no, so I spent all week telling myself I was not pregnant. So that when the phone call came on Friday, I could hold it together and not be so disappointed.

Well, when the call came she said I was pregnant. I think most of what she said after that was unheard by me, because I was so in shock and taken back by it. I have still had a hard time getting used to it, simply because I was so resolved that i was not pregnant. I had even made another appointment with another RE for next week to talk about different options.

What I do remember the nurse saying is that my beta is pretty high, 361 and there may be twins. Holy cow. I am still trying to take it all in.

I am 4 weeks along, so not very far. everyone knows, so hopefully all turns out all right....but here we go, on a wild ride!