Honest feelings

So..I have a lot of feelings and what better place to be honest and spill them then here, where a total of like 3 people read!

So...I am a tad bit sad that we are not having boy/girl twins. I really wanted one of each. This will be our only pregnancy. The hubs is going to be fixed after they are born, this is it. We agreed on one, got 2 which is a blessing, but we are done. The hubs has a daughter who will turn 18 right around the same time these boys come. We are really done. We aren't young.

I just know girls are more cuddly than boys...boys wipe off kisses and don't to snuggle as much as little girls. Girls have cute clothes and play dress up and barbie. I love my boys already, but really, I know NOTHING about little boys. It will be an adventure...I really wanted to have a boy and a girl. I hope this doesn't make me seem ungrateful. Because I am not, I know I am blessed to be pregnant and to be having 2 babies at once!

Also, it is a little freaky, along with amazing, to know that I am growing actual people inside of me. I mean, I knew I was pregnant all along, heart the hearts, saw the babies, but now to put an actual gender makes them like real little people. I have people renting out space inside of me...living and growing. I can feel them move now, which is crazy and amazing....more amazing, but still a tad bit crazy that these living things inside of me are moving and kicking and punching and I can feel it.

So, there is my vent. It's scary and exciting and I am over the moon in love with my 2 little baby boys to come! Next on the agenda....names. Oy!

It's a ....

Today we had an ultrasound and we found out the sex of our babies. We are 15 weeks and 5 days...

She is 100% sure that baby B is a Boy!

And she is 90% sure that baby A is a Boy as well!

So, here come 2 baby boys into this household....I will be the only girl!

I failed....

I swore I would keep up with the blog challenge...in fact it even got me a new commenter and I was so excited...but then I failed. I had a super busy day on Saturday and then I was sort of in a funk lately. This whole no job/stress about money thing is pretty sucky. And I have been feeling pretty depressed off and on the last few weeks...it is to the point now where I think I may finally admit to the doctor that there could be some sort of an issue. I have suffered from depression in the past and have taken medication but it has been years since I have, but it may be time to face reality...I am depressed. So we will see what they have to say.

My dog has been an issue lately, she seems to have 2 modes....dead to the world and asshole mode lol. She is so rough with the cat and is just always on him and chasing him and nipping him and trying to play, but in a 70 pound dog versus 12 pound cat war...the dog always wins. It drives me nuts because she doesn't know when to quit. She alternates between that and sleeping massive hours of the day. I think she may have a touch of depression as well. Her life has changed since I have become unemployed...she used to go to dog daycare a few times a week and now she doesn't. I should walk her more but I am so tired all the time, it is hard, but I really should put forth the effort.

The hubs and I have both been getting work done on our cars. his went in this week and mine goes in next week. I am getting my lil ole car ready for the winter and for 2 babies. It is a good car, a Honda CR-V, a 1998 with just over 200K miles on it. Still runs like a champ! We are going to keep it as long as we can, and then get a minivan probably.

So that's about it in a nutshell. I am 15 weeks tomorrow,,,,we have an ultrasound on Tuesday and we hope to find out the sex but it may still be a tad too early....we shall see.

Day 2 blog challenge....

The meaning behind your blog name.

I feel like mine is not so creative. I have seen some amazingly funny and creative titles around the community. Mine is just so sort of blah, straight to the point, really.

We wanted to be a family, one that included 2 legged children! So I knew that I wanted a blog to be able to write down all the info from all my appointments and be able to look back and compare months.....

When we found out we were pregnant, I made the current name...again, lacks a lot of character but is straight to the point.

So, not so interesting....

#1

My cousin Kelly and I in July-- up top and A co-worker and I about 2 months ago...

Okay...so I just have to share that today I turn 14 weeks pregnant. Starting the second trimester. Yay!.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts.

Okay...hmmm...why does this always turn out harder than I thought.

My name is Michelle, but everyone calls me Missy. I just turned 31. I live with my husband and our dog Moxie and our cat AJ. I worked full time until about 5 weeks ago....Boo. My husband works full time and works really hard to support our family. I love to read, I love celebrity gossip, I enjoy shopping, although not so much when it comes to clothes for me. I am a very emotional person who wears my heart on my sleeve and gets my feelings hurt very easily. I am sensitive and really caring and thoughtful. I enjoy cooking, as long as someone will eat it, the more the merrier. I tend to have lower self esteem. I had lap band surgery in Feb and lost 60 pounds...and am scared about gaining it all back with being pregnant.

15 facts -

1. I am 31 and sleep with woobie shorts.
2. I have broken the same ankle twice, once while playing mini-golf.
3. I am addicted to carbs. I don't need chocolate or ice cream...just give me Kraft mac and cheese (of course I can not eat pasta since my surgery but I try all the time)
4. I drive a 1998 Honda Cr-V that just rolled over to 200K miles and runs like a champ!
5. I am a hopeless romantic.
6. I am scared of thunder and being home alone at night (overnight).
7. My husband and I dated a LONG time before getting married...6.5 years.
8. I have always had issues with food, and just long to be a "normal size"
9. I am sensitive to noise. Loud TV, yelling, movies all bother me.
10. I am afraid of the dentist and usually have to take sedatives to go. Although I put on my big girl pants a few weeks ago and took none since I am pregnant. Not in any hurry to do that again.
11. I really enjoy reading blogs, lots and lots of them, and I do not know one person in real life.
12. I am a very thrifty person with money. If it is not on sale, I do not buy it.
13. I love love animals and would be the crazy animal lady if my husband let me.
14. We are super cheap with our heat and did not turn it on until December last year...we keep it set at 50 all winter long and dress in layers and its cold! We go a whole year without 1 oil delivery. (note: this will change when we have babies. We just had a new furnace with central air installed in June. Please do not call DCF!)
15. My husband works a later shift..1-9 pm and gets hom at around 9:30-10:00...therefore by the time he eats and relaxes he doesnt come to bed until 3 or 4 am. We hardly ever go to bed at the same time....


Recent picture, this may be difficult...I am always the picture taker and not in any...let me see what I can find!

Jumping on

So, I am joining a fellow blogger on her 30 day blog challenge. I think this will be great after my last post about not having things to post about and not always wanting to post about babies.

The 30 days are as follows:

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3-Your first love
Day 4-Your parents
Day 5-Your siblings
Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7-Favorite movies
Day 8-A place you've traveled to
Day 9-A picture of your friends
Day 10-Something you're afraid of
Day 11-Favorite tv shows
Day 12-What you believe
Day 13-Goals
Day 14-A picture you love
Day 15-Bible verse
Day 16-Dream house
Day 17-Something you're looking forward to
Day 18-Something you regret
Day 19-Something you miss
Day 20-Nicknames
Day 21-Picture of yourself
Day 22-Favorite city
Day 23-Favorite vacation
Day 24-Something you've learned
Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26-Picture of your family
Day 27-Pets
Day 28-Something that stresses you out
Day 29-3 Wishes
Day 30-a picture

I will stick to it as much as I can :-) ENjoy!

Life...it gets away from you

11 days since my last post, shame on me. I feel like i do not have a ton to say.

We had a big party this weekend for some geeky friends, I did a LOT of cooking and serving for 3 days and I am beat. Everyone had a blast though, so as long as people are happy, I am happy.

I had my first trimester screening done and it came back with really great numbers....so we were happy about that. I have to go to the doctors every week starting in 2 weeks and be monitored, they want to check my cervix every week and make sure it is doing well. I had a LEEP (they cut half of my cervix off to remove pre-cancerous cells) years ago and that can cause a problem...I may need a few stitches in it to keep it closed up, but we will keep an eye on it. But every week, man that is a lot of doctors appointments. The only good thing is one week I go for an ultrasound, the next week an exam, then ultrasound etc. So I get to see my babies every other week! That makes me happy.

My husband doesn't have today off, even though technically it is a holiday :-( ...I have to clean my house up after our party and I have a few stores to visit, but I may just relax, I don't know.

I feel a tad bit weird talking too much about my babies here. I know that the few people that do read my blog are going through infertility and I feel horrible talking about being pregnant. I know how emotional and sad I used to get when reading other peoples blogs about them getting pregnant. I was sad and wonder why not me and stuff like that. Sadly, being a stay at home wife/mom does not gve me all that much more to talk about.